First day of class..

Yeah my first day started out pretty tough.. I waited for you at the gate like I said I would.. I waited for you for.. like an hour.. but still you didn't came.. No don't be sorry.. I completely understand.. Its always like that.. I cant change that.. that's totally you.. the one who always made me look like a fool.. but I'm not saying your doing it on purpose.. Yeah I tolerate you.. Every time this happened in the past I just said Its okay.. but deep inside I'm hurt.. I know things happen.. That's not your fault..

Also.. Yesterday.. I chatted you when our paths came a cross while we were both online on yahoo messenger.. I begged you.. I pleaded.. I swallowed my pride.. I was the one who stood down.. but still you didn't talk to me in an educated matter.. How would you feel if you asked someone.. and all she says is "k"... or.. "ahw".. or... "tan.awn".. do you think that's right?... I really don't enjoy being treated that way you for one should know.. its like you don't even respect me.. I'm upset once again.. Why?? for how I wanted us to talk about this.. but you just don't consider.. how I ate my pride and stood down to you.. even If I was the one who got hurt by everything you did I still wanted us to work this out.. Even after everything you said I still came and sort of said "I still want you in spite what you did..
you just don't care anymore do you?

In the past its like you really know me.. but I guess you never did.. you know how sentimental I can get.. and how I would try to work things out.. but I have limits.. I'm only human! Still you insist to be driven by your stubbornness and indecisiveness.. I really can live with the things you try to instill.. You know what.. everything you ever said was really so deceiving .. congrats!! you really fooled me.. you got me.. or may be I just took you too seriously..

And just this evening.. you sent me a message that you want us to talk.. bullshit!!.. You think its that easy? Maybe for you.. because your just plain insensitive and indecisive.. our situation is worst than ever.. You just don't consider my feelings anymore.. why the hell won't you ponder on what you've done?

"Kita nako aning salidaa!! Mao ra gihapon ma.usab gihapon umong mga sah.. ky you don't internalize or even take time to ponder on it! all you want is to feed your one sided self with the things that you want! disregarding of the consequences that might arise from your immature thinking!.. I thought you were different.. I guess your just the same as the others.. and to think you even said that you cared.." ;'(

Ponder on this! "Changes don't just come about.. you make them your self!.." and now what? your gonna say that wasn't you? and you just got carried away? I'm may look like an insensitive bastard but I'm not blind.. I too have feelings.. Don't let your gluttonous deeds take the best of you.. It was you who changed! not me! I remained to be the one that you came to love! and instead I am improving myself to become the best for you!.. You don't have to give me any reason.. Your luck just ran out.. you need to think.. and..


Win me back..