I dried my tears and I realized... I deserve somebody.. who would treat me right..

Yup.. its been 15 days since the day she told me all those shitty things.. hmmm do you wanna hear some of what she said?? she said that she was afraid that he might hurt me in the long run.. meanwhile even at that moment i was so hurt in the process.. how could you ask someone to forget his feelings for you just because of some lame excuse.. such as studies.. well im not saying studies shouldn't be proiritized.. but the truth of the matter is how can I be a hindrance of the moment when in the past I wasn't... yup and she was afraid that I might get hurt in the long run... In the long run??? I would not get hurt if you WON't hurt me.. I am really upset with her so much upset.. yeah and later that day... her friend told me that there was this guy who she said that she was being given free lunch and worse SHE said she liked the guy.. And she told her friend that she was "COnsenxa" that just signifies that she did something wrong.. the hell... Is this the reason?? why you were afraid of the long run?. Foolish child.. I don't deserve this kind of shit...

And her birthday came.. yeah.. I had the nerve to give her a gift.. I dont really know why.. and she came to me.. she talked.. and you know what?.. I gave her all my thoughts and how I felt.. she was somehow down or upset.. well thats her choice not mine.. It hurts to be fooled by someone whom you trusted so much.. I really wanted to say this to her.. "Sakit masakpan sah?".. too bad she already left looking down the floor.. hmmmp she said she was sorry.. and I just said.. whats the use of a sorry if the one saying it will never change.. Naa pakay pinky swear pinky swear pagfebruary 23 2009.. tsk2x wa ra d.i 2 nmu... faet.. sakit.. pero I think and I feel I have to move on..

I should not live in a deceiving box that gives me nothing but pain and deceit.. I guess I have nothing more to say to her...

If she wants me to be her friend back.. then she has to earn it.. how can you have a friend that lost your trust for the second time.. I gave you a second chance.. after what you did last december.. but still you wasted it.. a second chance is a very big thing..

Pls.. Grow up! this is not a game that you can play after you lost.. this is not like a song.. that you can replay after you heard it.. bullshit! I just wanna live my life now.. too bad I trusted you too much... I guess you need to fix your self first..

I don't know who to trust anymore.. I wont be stupid for someone any more I even wonder why I tolerated this kind of shit. may be it was love.. but too bad you ruined it all! you made me look like a fool..

I dont wanna love anymore..

I'll just wait for some girl out there that would show me she really loves me.. and not take me for granted.. hope she comes.. I will wait for her to come..

You just lost a friend